Being SAHMI like being SAHM, watch my girl grow and reached her milestones. I want to transfer my own value to her, makes her feel loved. Being SAHM can be also be demanding, physically and mentally. I had my fair shares of sleepless nights and always feeling tired. I find now the most challenging part is to discipline a child, it can totally drain your energy emotionally and mentally. It is a heartache to see her cry but yet the child must not be spoilt. And yet sometimes, I find myself turning into a monster which I do not recognise. Then I will feel extremely guilty for exploding like that.
Looking for jobsWith financial burden growing heavy and a housing loan to pay for, I had to find myself a job, preferably a part time one where I can work half a day and stay at home after that. But these jobs is not readily available. I tried to find one that is near my area but I can't seem to get an interview from anywhere.
When I finally got an interview, it is actually though a friend's recommendation, I went for it. It's a full time job working in the city, quite near but some travelling is required.
Now that I have accepted the job offer.
WorriesI am wondering whether I had made the right decision. If I were to put little one in full day will there be someone who would help me discipline her and instill the right value when she did wrong? Will she feel that she is not being loved enough? Then, what if we could not fetch her on time? Also, we may have to dine out more often. Otherwise, we might search through this website and order from the stated restaurant if we could not cook. (I still prefer home cooked food. =X) Over these few days, I have been wondering whether I am up to the mark although I have not started on my job yet. I have not been working for 3 years. Will I be able to adapt to my new life after being stagnant for 3 years?
ChangesNow that I had already signed the contract, I guess I just have to make it work and see how it goes.
Little one has been experiencing her full day routine staggeredly. I am amazed that she has been taking it well. She is able to nap in school and all without a fuss.
I have to make adjustment to her routine before school. Nowadays no more home made breakfast. Little one is still taking her own sweet time to go to school. I think in order for me to arrive on time, I guess I have no choice but to dress her up myself and also to carry her all the way to the bus stop as I do not want to wake her up early at 630am to do ask her do every thing herself. I had timed, if she do everything herself, I took 2 hours to prepare her and reach work place at 830am. If I do it for her, I'll take 1hr15 min to reach work place. I guess that is the best I can do. I guess I could only now afford to train her walk faster by herself when we are going home.
I also start to prepare myself by doing household chores in the evening so that I will not be in total transition shock when my job starts. As for home cooked food, I guess it will probably be steaming most of the time if we really do not have the time to cook.
These few days, I do see changes in my home. It is neater because little one is not around most of the time and I made her keep her toys before she sleeps. Lesser time were spent on home schooling. I practically find myself preparing food for dinner and doing the laundry the moment we step home.
If you are a FTWM, how do you prepare your child each day and how to you prepare your meals in the evening? Is there any fast and nutritious recipe to share? Please share your tips..